I Am Not OK

This is a care post. To state it plainly:  I have been reserving the right to say “I am not OK.” And I’m not. This has been going on too long, and with no end in sight, I hold space for all of my flaws, uglies and rough edges to say, “I hate this.”

It feels good to let it all out. It feels good to admit that my life isn’t “Awesome.” It feels great to acknowledge just how great this isn’t. That’s about all that’s great.

I want to hear it.  And, Friday night (tomorrow), Open Temple creates a forum to SHARE OUR TRUTHS. I am personally inviting you into our OT Zoom Room during Shabbat Take Me Higher Services. Throughout the service, one at a time, we invite you to share a public check in.  I want to hear, in real time, how you are doing. And I will ask you to do this in front of a personally chosen background image that reflects how you are doing. Our minute or two together will give you the chance to express yourself, let us know why you chose that image and really, HOW YOU ARE doing.

Quarantine Shabbat: May 15, 2020 at 7 pm
Streaming on opentemple.org/live and Facebook Live 

Add your to members of our community listed below who are stepping into the service. If you agree to participate (and I hope you do!), send us an email now so that we can facilitate this for you.

Open Temple Ajae Clearway coined a great expression that I am adopting to describe this time we are living through:  “The Infinite Pause.” As we continue to experience this prolonged presence together, let’s share our humanity with the aspiration to make space for others to feel their own feelings as well. In a time of isolation, virtual reality and too much pain, let us build a container for community as best as we can through this time. A container filled with Creativity. Love. And Truth.

Wishing you love, sending you care, and holding space alongside you,

Quarantine Shabbat: May 15, 2020 at 7 pm
Zach Puchtel
Rafaelle Cohen
Ben Carroll
Joe Green
Idan Mayer
Jordana Reim
Kent Jenkins
Rabbi Lori

Connecting in a Time of Corona

Who are we when no one is watching? That is the essence of this week’s Torah portion, Achrei Mot-Kedoshim. Its essence: Love another as Yourself (Leviticus 19:18). But, what does the Golden Rule really mean, especially in a world of Social Isolation?

Quarantine has given all of us a lot of time to think about this. How do I love others? Do I holistically love myself? For those of us in Quarantine with others, we are walking through a house of mirrors. There is no hiding from our reactions, missteps, impatiences or breaking points. For those of us alone, the interiority of the experience is palpable, its novelty has worn off, and loneliness has set in. Dwelling Amongst Others or Singular in Oneself, all of us can ask:  Who have I been behind closed doors for the past 46 days?

This time is a gift for those of us who will make it out alive: we get to reconsider how we treat ourselves, our earth and one another. And each of these questions reflects our interior calibration. Kedoshim teaches us this as well: Holiness is not something outside of us; indeed, the God character in the Torah portion demands that WE be Godly. Holiness and Godliness are intrinsic to the human experience. There is no separating it out: to be alive is to be Godly; to be alive is to be Holy. As one who struggles to understand what a Concept of God is, in this form, I consider: Godliness is the Confluence of my Internal Experience of Being in Accord with my External Behaviors.

The time is upon us to cultivate this awareness. Open Temple’s offerings engage us in opportunities to do this work: cultivating mindfulness and loving-kindness. We must do this now; and even more fiercely when we re-enter this Brave, New World. Our actions will define our Republic in ways never before seen. We are being called to “make ourselves holy” so that we can emerge ready for the work before us.

Open Temple’s Zoom Shabbat weaves a tapestry of peer-groups to connect our Jew-ish curiosities with this mission. Our bodies will become conditioned for resilience in our Shal(OM) Yoga Shabbat sessions. Our Path to Authenticity will be paved through Mussar and Mindfulness. A parental Soul Break is offered for us mid-week to mitigate madness and promote humor. And while there is more (see below), we will lead the way in new forms of Social Connection while Social Distancing when we emerge from Quarantine and Celebrate at Drive-In Shabbat.

May Each of us Experience a Connection with the Source Within that Connects us as a Source for One Another as we Pray for All of Our World Through This Time.

with Love, Connection, and Torah Light,
Rabbi Lori

A Seder for Our Time

A Seder for Our Time

By: Rabbi Lori Shapiro

This morning, as I ran on the beach at 6:00 am, I saw the Full Moon Set into the ocean. An Orange Orb in the sky, its face seemed as astonished as I was by the experience. The moon, the Luminary of Darkness, was Dipping into the Waters; not the Sun. At Sunrise, I was greeted not by the Dawn Breaking, but the Darkness Descending.

We are Living Through Historic Narrative, and our Torah will be Forever Transformed through this Time. Torah glows most brightly when it is allowed to do what it does best – turn and return – as a Sefer Torah, in its essence, is a spinning symbol of adaptation and renewal. Our rabbinic tradition continues to re-write the “how-tos” of Jewish Law; and this year offers a prime opportunity to do that – this year, in Cyberspace; next year, in Jerusalem.

However, even our Mishnah Pesach, (some of the earliest writings of Rabbinic Oral Law), begins with a curious expression: “Ohr L’arba’ah asar bodkin et hahametz l’ohr ha’ner” translated as: On the night of the fourteenth they must search for leaven by the light of a candle.” The rabbis translate the first Hebrew word for LIGHT as NIGHT. Why would they do this?

The answer Illuminates this Period of Darkness. The Ohr in question is attached to the ritual described in b’dikat chametz , or the Search for Chametz (or levening). Chametz also represents our bloated egos, our myopic blindness, the transgressive patterns that we cease to surrender. Ohr is used twice in this verse introducing our Search for Chametz: As an opening word, translated as “night,” and another time to describe the candle used in the ritual search. But, is the first Ohr really night, so mysteriously inserted at at the opening of the Mishnah? Or, might it be attached to another image – that of Light in Darkness, the “Ohr HaGanuz,” Hidden Light?

The Concept of a Hidden Light begins in Creation’s First Day, when God creates primordial light. It is not until the fourth day that the God character creates the constellations. These luminaries are NOT the Light of Day One; they are distinct, and Rashi’s commentary describes the original light as “Wicked (people)…unworthy of using it, and therefore [God] set it apart for the Righteous in the Future Time.” Rashi’s statement carries a moral ontological heaviness; the Light of Torah is available only to those who seek it as a source of spiritual enlightenment in a “Future Time.” Those who use it for evil will be shut out.

The Ramchal (Rabbi Moshe Chaim Luzzuto) writes in his 18th century Kabbalistic work Sefer HaKlalim: “God made a separation in the illumination of the light, that it should not flow or give off light except for the righteous, whose actions draw it down and make it shine. However, the actions of evil block it, leaving them in darkness, and this itself was the hiding of the light.”

This image makes me think of the Statue of Liberty. Our symbol of American Empathy carries a Torch – Her Hidden Spiritual Light Illuminated, Lighting the Path to Our Nation, an Ohr HaGanuz of its own merit. As we move through this time of unprecedented Darkness in our Lifetime, May we all Lift up our Torches – be it small candles guiding our way through tonight’s search for chametz or an inward torch to understand our own psyche and dark corners. May we use this Time of Quarantine Passover to do the Real Work, with the goal NOT being Liberation, Freedom or Change, but The Goal Being the Cultivation of the Hidden Light Within. The Mishnah teaches us that Passover begins with Ohr. And so, Let us Begin!

There is great work ahead of us. We have only just begun to move through this Plague of Darkness. But, we are fortified through Community, Ritual and Spiritual Practice. The Time has Come for Each of Us to cultivate our INNER LIGHTS OF BEING so that, when we emerge, each of our Hidden Lights will combine with others.

Open Temple offers many different ways to cultivate our inner light through a Jewish Spiritual Practice. Our Mussar Group meets weekly to deal with our inner darkness head on; our collaboration with At the Well’s Holy Bodies series is another opportunity. For children and families, we have Barbara Olinger’s groups as well as Open Temple’s Creative Torah Academy. Tamar Frankiel offers Kabbalah to transform. And we begin it all this Thursday Night, when our Second Seder will be led by the Generation that will Lead us to a New Time: Our Children.

And so – who are we becoming through this time?  Torchbearers of Enlightenment? Spiritual Warriors seeking Justice and Shining our Lights in search of ridding the world of chametz? Or are we going to hide the light from ourselves, through fear, darkness and narcissistic patterns? Passover comes at the perfect time this year, and asks us: Who do you want to Become?

Become with us.

with Love, Gratitude, and a Blessing to Continue Flattening the Curve,
Rabbi Lori and Open Temple Board